For the next several songs, it's worth noting that the ages of 9 and 10 were the epicenter of trauma. These were not exclusive years, but they will show up more than once.
Perhaps your life experience looks, in some fashion, similar to mine. If so, I'm sorry. That's really hard. If you care to listen to the songs I post, may they remind you that you are not alone; that our history is not our destiny; and, to quote Samwise Gangee, "There's some good in this world, Mr. Frodo, and it's worth fighting for."
Here is a link to the song: https://suno.com/s/mlYdNQPQpajoyfIy . I love this Southern Rock version so much, because it's hard and gritty, and this kind of music is embedded in my soul.
"When I Was Nine"
When I was nine it was time
To learn life is not fine
That words can be weapons
For bullies like mine.
That friendship is fleeting
And happiness is cheating
And my heart takes a beating
And I was just nine.
When I was ten, it was then
That I learned from some men
How boundaries broken
Look a whole lot like sin.
And safety was stolen,
And trust just a token
And trauma awoken
And I was just ten.
CHORUS:
There’s beauty from ashes
And though I have flashes
Of pain, when it gashes
My soul, I’m gonna be alright.
Those memories, they last
50 years in the past
Feel like yesterday,
That child, that boy,
Who some would destroy
Has his reckoning.
CHORUS
When all’s said and done,
What was said, what was done
Does not dictate
What I have become.
There is another version of this song that I really like. It's "dark alternative" in Suno, which reminds me of Evanescence or Flyleaf. Choose your version. https://suno.com/s/c0awQJMgcTc9KgtU.
Thank you. So incredibly brave.
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